2022TFF:About her broken things

I always know that such a person like me is annoying. People don’t believe in the true “goodness“, because they cannot imagine it, nor can they own it. They misunderstand it as “morality“ and cannot stand that other people possess superior virtue. Any person with good virtue will always be deemed to be a hypocrite.
The meaning of true ”goodness“ is supposed to be more uncontaminated. It is pure, beautiful, indefinable and filled with possibility.
That’s why I need to speak. I must speak out, using my language! I want to believe that, one day, I can go back to home, a place that I truly belong to.

As a 26 years old woman, she is not different from others, going to work, getting off work, snuggling up on sofa, playing cell phone.
It’s a story about her. It maybe means nothing to the world. (Is a story that is not very interesting can be regarded as a story?)
Why tell a story? Isn’t it good to have just a blank sheet of paper?
It’s a story about her most pure aspect--her fantasy, ideal and anything that never be born to the world, about her most painful part--her exhausting, collapsing, and irreversible loss, and about her excessive cleanliness, sensitivity, innocence, idealization, moodiness, and being out of reality. It’s about her broken things.
She doesn’t want to lose her story yet. She is going to speak out a monologue.
She is destroyed, and she recovers. SHE narrates HER own story. Will SHE be a real HER?